R2 VLCD 2

Loading was awful this time... I gained almost 8 lbs... ugh!!!! This morning I was down 5.4 so I have a few more lbs before I get to start adding to total weight loss... I will get there... I am feeling super bloated and my legs are swollen so I think the TOM is trying to show up... but he keeps changing his mind about when he is coming... annoying~! I have so much to get done this week... we have a ton of people coming to our house this weekend for the PRIDE bbq.... so I will check in again tomorrow~!

P3 not for long...

So I had to take an unexpected break... phase 3 has been fine... I am actually a lb below my last day on drops... I am going to get back on the loss train this weekend I am very excited to see the scale move again... my plan is to do another 23 day cycle and then take about a 6 week break... (if I can wait that long) and do it again... I didn't make my goal on the last round because of having to stop for health reasons... so I am hoping to hit a little below that goal on this round... Hope you all are doing great! I will try to check in more often it just has been a crazy week with all the tornados....

Phase 3 :(

After almost passing out yesterday, my scale and hcg have been taken away from me... I feel like I was getting immune to it, I was starving all the time and adjusting my dose was doing no good... I was and about all day yesterday and when my legs gave out with fatigue and I almost passed out... I was basicly forced to take a break... I ate phase the rest of the day and after searching the house this morning found my scale hidden in a drawer in the guest bedroom... and I didn't gain anything... so that is good... I am gonna give my body some time to stabilize and then I am gonna give it another go... I lost a total of 25 lbs on my first round so I am proud of myself... I would have liked to have lost another 13 lbs, but I have to be kind to my body... so until next hcg round... Hope you all are doing well...

vlcd 19

Well I am the same today, but it is okay, because I am only 13 llbs away from my first goal!!! I am hoping I can make it happen this round... I was thinking about it last night and how diff I will look at Christmas if I just keep pluggin along! kinda exciting! Hope had a meeting today and she may get offered a higher position, which means more money, but less time at home... can't really decided how I feel about it... we will see!

HELP!!!!!! Vlcd 18

scale broke this morning had to go buy a new one and weighed 3 hours later than usual on a new scale... it said I had a 2.2 lb drop does this count... My old scale is not fixable... so I am not sure what to think... I know I am repeating myself but 3 hours later in the day I would weigh more than if I weighed at my usual 8:30 time... right... and if it is a lower number I prob did lose something last night right? Oh beegeezes this is confusing... I want to count it because that means I lost 2.2 more lbs... and I can't go back to my broken scale... but Is this untrue to my weight loss journey...what if my other scale would have said something diff or it could have said the same thing... I don't know... what would you do??? help!!!

VLCD 17

There is a Scale Fairy and He LIKES me!!! I took my water intake down from 200oz a day to around 80 yesterday and I lost 1.2 lbs this morning... If I lose again tomorrow doing this I will come to the conclusion that I was DRINKING WAY to much water... my thoughts were the more I peed the more I would lose, that's what I get for thinking... Thank you guys for your help and encouragement this past week... Hopefully I have broken down this wall and will be able to have a good couple of days!

vlcd 16

Stalled again... this is 3 days at the same weight... I wanted to give up yesterday, but stuck with it... I know that I should be happy I am on vlcd 16 and have lost 21.8 lbs but 18 of that was the first week, and I have only lost 3.8 lbs in 9 days... 9 days... I was prepared for it to slow down but I was expecting it to be better than this... Is it normal to stall like this  twice in a row and please tell me at some point I am gonna see bigger losses again... and that there is hope for me to hit my goal...                                                                                                                                                                                                                               I wonder if I need to adjust my drops but I don't even know where to begin there... I am taking 12 at 8am, 6 at noon, 6 at 4pm, and 12 at 8pm ... and yes Chellie I am drinking TONS of water... like 200 oz a day

vlcd 15

this diet is now officially torturing me... I lost .2 lbs today... I can't believe that I am not losing hardly anything... really want to give up... I had such a great first week... 2nd week only lost 3 lbs and now I am losing .2 lbs... really... UGH I am in weight loss hell... Just want to freaking cry and eat a freaking cheese burger...

Vlcd 14

I can not believe I have actually made it 2 whole weeks... I have to say that as glad as I am that I have stuck with it for this long it seems as if it will never be over... I still have about 29 days left (I was gonna try to do 45 days) not even half way done yet... I sure hope that the scale starts working in my favor or It will be very tempting to stop after 23 days... I lost 18 lbs the first week and only  3.6 in week 2... not very encouraging... I randomly gained a lb one day and then lost it again and then stalled for 3 days... Finally lost 1.4 lbs this morning, but I don't know what I will do if I stall again this week... ugh the thought of it makes me sick at my stomach... however I took another set of pictures today and my stomach shows a big difference...so I guess even in not losing lbs this week I did lose some inches... My overall goal for this round was to get to 280... I am 16.6 lbs away from that goal... I wonder if I will make it... this last week makes me feel like It is impossible... I am not asking for another 18 lb week but 5 a week would be nice...

Dear Scale Fairy... Please help me... I want to feel encouraged again...

vlcd 13

I have a confession... today my baby cousin had a dance recital, and the whole family went to olive garden... I was gonna just sit and eat an apple but after 10 members of my family nagged me for 30 min while we waited to be seated I almost gave in and just ordered whatever I wanted... let me tell you the smell was enough to make you cheat... I think I got a contact calorie high just being there... however I can not say that I stayed strong and just ate my apple... I ordered the grilled chicken breast with spinich and it had a cream sauce on top... I wipped as much of it off as i could, but I did have some of it... am I going to hcg diet hell for this... it is possible, however I have been stalled at the same weight for 3 days so there could be worse things to happen... LOL... go ahead tell me I am weak, that I let the calorie high effect my judgement, and that I am a VERY BAD GIRL... I deserve it... but let me just say this... IT WAS DAMN GOOD... and she was SO FREAKING CUTE!!!

vlcd 12

doing a little experiment today... will let you know how it goes... hoping it doesn't throw me off track...

VLCD 11

BEEF vs CHICKEN

 And the Winner is...(drumroll please)........... CHICKEN...

I have had a tough couple of days... I gained and then lost a small amount... I had been trying to eat beef... I then decided to change to chicken for a few days to see what would happen on the scale... I am happy to say that after eating chicken all day yesterday, I am down 1.8lbs so at least for now I will stick to chicken...

I must say that today I feel proud, in 11 days I have lost 20.2 lbs and I can't believe how strong I have been... Yesterday was HARD... I was craving meat like it was my job, and not some greet people at Wal-mart job, like I was a Construction worker... lol... I had pre cooked some chicken and portioned it out and had it in my fridge and it took everything in me not to go eat it all... I was happy to be craving meat and not something sinful, but I think that made it worse, because I would reason with myself... tell myself that it wouldn't be so bad... it was just meat... lol... but I DIDN'T give in and the scale fairy rewarded me this morning... ha ha ha...

My goal was to be down to 295 by the end of this week, that would be 3 more lbs this week, we shall see... if I don't have anymore setbacks it could happen, but I am not gonna beat my head over it...

I wanted to share with you what I had for dinner last night it really hit the spot...

I precooked my chicken and then put a little hot sauce (no sugar) in a baggie shook my chicken in it and then rolled it in my melba toast that I has crushed up... it was delicious... I felt like i was cheating but NO!!! it tasted like a buffalo wing! YUMMY!!!

VLCD 10

299.8... I can't be mad at least I broke outta the 300's...

Today is a busy day, feeling a little better, but gonna try to take it easy so that I don't feel worse by the end of it! I am gonna try to do all chicken for a few days and see how my losses go... because I has beef the past 2 days and not much to talk about loss wise... update to come

VLCD 9

Is this some Kinda Joke!!!

I Just weighed and I gained a lb... I am not gonna freak out too much because I woke up about an hour later than usual and I am not feeling good head is stuffy ears are hurting... but I was sure I would hit the 200's today... ugh I think I am gonna go back to bed... the challange today will be getting enough water and eating because I feel like poop... speaking of poop I can't do that either... ugh!!!!

Dear Body... I know there have been a lot of changes lately but I am doing this for us, so that we can be stronger and healthier and live a long life... please join my team and don't get sick...

I used to have a Positve Attitude...

Chellie said..."Cinderalla, you have such an amazing attitude!:)"

This made my heart jump... and my first thoughts were I used to have a positive attitude... and then I sat there and stared at the computer... I DO HAVE A POSITIVE ATTITUDE... I am fighting back tears as I write this, so sorry if it is a complete mess, But You see I have been depressed and down and hated myself for at least 2 years now... Before that I was Happy go lucky...the epitome of a SOCIAL BUTTERFLY I was a Fat girl but I would tell you proudly that you would never meet a fat girl cuter than me, I was FAT but I climbed mountains, I was Fat but I went and lived in africa by myself for 4 months and traveled to many other country's, I was FAT but I met the most amazing woman and she made me her wife, I was FAT and wanted to sing opera and didn't care what anyone else had to say about it, I was FAT and loved to dance and didn't think everyone was staring at me and making fun of me... my mom then died, I dropped out of college (opera major)... lost my dad, lost my grandma and then I started hating myself... I got sick all the time, I gained 50 lbs in 2 years, I NEVER wanted to go do anything because people "would make fun of me" I stopped enjoying my life... and until I began this journey I have not had an AMAZING ATTITUDE... But Chellie, thank you... because you made me realize that this change I am making to my body... Is also changing my soul... I am a Pretty FAT Girl, and I will climb mountains again, I will sing opera again even if it is only in my shower, I will DANCE when we go out because I love it, I will remember to say thank you for all the amazing things I have in my life and I will most importantly remember to Love myself... because I am Fan Freaking Tabulous~!

VLCD8

ONE WEEK ON HCG ='s 18 lb's Gone... VERY EXCITING!!!

Weighed in at 300.2 this morning SO CLOSE!!! Tomorrow will be the day that this girl says Good bye to the 300's and HELLO to the 2's~!  

This weekend was rough for me, but I did not cheat once... I am am emotional eater... okay now I feel like I am at an AA meeting, but this weekend posed several  challanges for me because : 

1) the mother in law was in town and who isn't stressed when you have your mother in law in town...
2) Gram is in the hospital and now she has mersa(sp?) on top of the phenomena...
3) My mom passed away 4 years ago at the age of 50, this holiday is NOT a thrill to deal with...

I made this decision to change my life however because I do not want to die at 50 like my mom, so I took strength in the changes I am making for myself this weekend and made it thru without ever once cheating... YAY ME!!!

Today I am gonna enjoy this beautiful day and get ready for my happy dance tomorrow!!! (Hopefully I will lose... at least 1/2 a lb... )

vlcd7

Down 1.2 this morning... weighed in at 301.4 I am itching to break into the 200's hopefully in the next few days... busy day today... gotta go pack my lunch! Hope everyone has a great mothers day...

VLCD6

EMERGENCY!!!!

My scale is broken... It is jumping all over the place... it said I gained 5 lbs and then it said that I lost 2 and everything in between... freaking out feeling frustrated, Hope got on and it did the same thing to her... But now I have no clue how I did yesterday and I am just so anxious... What if my loss yesterday was wrong and what if we get a new scale and it says I weigh more... what if this scale has been off the whole time... mini melt down... I NEED to know what I weigh today!!!! ahhhhhhhhhhh!!!! VERY UPSET... I guess I will just keep doing vlcd and when we go get a new scale go from there, but that is gonna make this MISERABLE!

VLCD5

So much to tell... I will start with Gram and let me say thank you so much for your thoughts and encouragement... She has phenomena and they have her on iv antibiotics... she looks A LOT better already! She is cracking jokes and being her usual lovable self! I just can't wait to get her back home... (She lives with Hope and I)

I weighed this morning 4x that is right 4x... I even made Hope come look at the scale 2 different times to make sure I was not going crazy... But I am happy to report that I lost 4.6 lbs today... and my total as of now is 15.6lbs... Very exciting stuff!!!! Was very worried about eating shrimp but seems to have been okay...

I have faced a few trials today but am happy to announce that I took them in stride... Hopes mom is here for mothers day and her mom asked me to take her to mc donalds... she then proceded to eat a cheeseburger and french fries in the car on the way home... I just had to tell myself that I am doing this for me and if I give in or let those things break me, I am only hurting me... so I just tried to ignore the mouth watering smells of her cinnamon roll and before mentioned... and came home and had my chicken and celery... GOOD JOB ME!!!
 

VLCD4

Ugh yesterday was awful... babysat and had a late lunch, then had to take my gram to the hospital, she got admitted so I was there for 7 hours and didn't get to eat dinner till almost 10pm... feeling discouraged because I feel like the tinyest thing is gonna throw this whole diet off... I didn't cheat and was still able to have all my water but it was a very stressful and tough day... Down 1.2 today for a total of 11lbs in 3 days I know that is great, but hoping that I can pull a few more big numbers before it all slows down on me... pressing on... and hoping today it a little more smooth... on a positive note I was scared to try tilapia but I did and I love it!

VLCD3

Yesterday seemed to be much easier than the first day... No hunger and only got a headache before bed, and it was mild compared to the 3 days before... I am ashamed to say that I was disappointed this morning when I got on the scale... You may think I am crazy, but following the 6.2 lost yesterday I was just excited... I Lost 3.6 today which is great I realize, but I when I saw that it was .2 away from ten lbs... I was a lil bummed! I even tried to poop so that I could get that 10lb mark, but no dice (or poop, which ever you prefer!). I am however excited that I am only 8.4 lbs away from being out of the 300's... that will be a big break thru for me...

A positive... My goal for the first week was to get to 310 and I have already done that... so for that I say heck yeah! My next goal is to be out of the 300's by this time next week... that is 8 lbs in 7days!!! Come on Body you can do it!

Until next time... Peace, Love, and NO chicken grease!

And so it begins

Today I had a victory, and it made me think about this journey I am beginning... you see until I saw a weight lost this morning I have been living in fear... fear that I would never be able to change... I am not so naive to think that this journey will be easy or even fun, but today I made a choice... that no matter what the next day brings, and what obstacles I may face... today it begins... a new life, a life where I no longer live in fear of failing... I will do my best and I will have a success story in the end... And so It begins... No day but today...

R1P2D2

Just Weighed myself and I lost 6.2 lbs... I can not believe it... I am jumping around like a SKINNY girl! I know that everyday will not be like this, but today... TODAY... we dance!